DREAMING

I was looking at my dream that is being deemed far away
And I was standing blankly
I don’t have anything left any more
I thought about giving up everything, but
I am standing up again
Even today step by step
I step forward carefully
My heart is full of fears
but it’s an excitement I’m embracing
I am staggering and shaking
But, I step forward towards
the dream that I am going to meet some day
As I’m thinking if it’s going to end like this
A fear constantly comes
I’m hesitating but
Deep inside my heart
There’s an unstoppable beating
that drags me forward
Even today step by step
I step forward carefully
My heart is full of fears
but it’s an excitement I’m embracing
I am staggering and shaking
But, I step forward towards
the dream that I am going to meet some day
Even today step by step
I step forward carefully
My heart is full of fears
but it’s an excitement I’m embracing
I am staggering and shaking
But, I step forward towards
the dream that I am going to meet some day
Towards the dream that I am going to meet some day

We will not go down in the night

A blinding flash of white light
Lit up the sky over Gaza tonight
People running for cover
Not knowing whether theyre dead or alive

They came with their tanks and their planes
With ravaging fiery flames
And nothing remains
Just a voice rising up in the smoky haze

We will not go down
In the night, without a fight
You can burn up our mosques and our homes and our schools
But our spirit will never die
We will not go down
In Gaza tonight

Women and children alike
Murdered and massacred night after night
While the so-called leaders of countries afar
Debated on whos wrong or right

But their powerless words were in vain
And the bombs fell down like acid rain
But through the tears and the blood and the pain
You can still hear that voice through the smoky haze
 
We will not go down
In the night, without a fight
You can burn up our mosques and our homes and our schools
But our spirit will never die
We will not go down
In Gaza tonight

Don't Cry

I want you to stay tonight
I want you to say that ”i’ll be here”
I need to hear it 
Let us go outside and see
See the stars that glows and feel with love
I don’t wanna miss it
Hey wait up wait up don’t you run too fast
Because i care we care though the story must go on

Don’t cry , I want you to know that we still need ...

Fun Shit Freak Damn Love Story (┌˘▽˘)┌♥┐(˘▽˘┐)

One day , I found someone new . He is from Japan . Almost every day me and him chatting . He ask all about me  until He ask me for being his girlfriend. I ever think , I just know him 1month , how can I accept him? When he ask me, actually I dont like him anymore . So , I really feel confused what must I do , "accept or ignore" . But finally my heart say "Accept him" and I do it , I accept him and we are being couple . But , 2days after I accept him , I can feel if I love him . Day after day we are just chatting , never meet . Im so far with him .

But , day after day , I think he is be cold to me . He never text me first . Although , I text he first he is reply so short and even he dont reply . Example he just say : "Nice" , "Good" , "Yes" , "Good night" , "Really?" , and many others . Then , someday .. I think if he is not care and attention me more . I ask him " why u never care and attention me?" and he say "I feel i attention and care u" but i think no , he is never show if he attention and care me . Then someday I ask him to be Romantic guy , but he just answer "I cant , I want to be cool guy . I cant be romantic guy . If u wanna Romantic guy , search other guy" and I just feel if he is care to me there , when he ask me for search other guy .

He is really hate person who always ask to him "why why and why" . And I always do it , Always ask him "why bla bla bla" "why bla bla bla" . Someday I feel he cant understand me , so I chat with him like this :

Me : Why u never can understand me?

Him : Because u never can understand me too

Me : Can u prove?

Him : Yes ,Bcause u said "why cold?" Cold is my character .But u don't know and couldn't understand
One day I said "I think u r busy" , But u said "don't think I'm busy" . That is my kindness !!
When i cant reply ur message , I'm busy !! But u didnt understand!! and u said "don't think", Why?!! , U said many time "Why don't reply?"

Me : All is misunderstanding

Him : No , its true

Me :  I just want u message me , although im busy , so i say that

Almost every day after that Im always angry to him and say "sorry , please forgive me" , and he ever say "why u always angry? and after that u say sorry?" , I just can say " Because Im weak and I just can say what I feel" . And finally I think i have to say  "I can understand if u cant forgive me . I can understand if u hate me"  He didnt reply anything , And i feel so guilty so I message him " how ?" he reply "I hate you" . I say "funny u hate ur gf" and i dont know why he is answer me like this "sorry then , I made u sad , Really sorry . Im not hate you . I love you :*" Me : "Is that real from ur heart " Him : "yes , sorry . still love me?" Me : "of course , whatever happen Im still love you" . Day after day i think he little change became romantic and care me more . But one day he is change being cold again . And I ask why again , so there is a problem more until he say "maybe we must break up . I feel uncomfortable and I think when we being friend u are really friendly " . Even I dont want break up with him , I hold him . But he dont want and finally we are break up .

After that we are being friends like previously when we meet ,  Every day we are talks too like when we are being couple . But 1week after break up we are being "Lost Contact" , we never talks more .

That is my fun shit freak damn story love \(`⌂´*)/ (―˛―“) \(´▽`)/

Thank you for reading (з´⌣`ε)

Rillakuma

Backhugs = love

Long Distance Relationship

From My Experience , I have strategy for stand in long distace relationship . My Bf is from Japan and I'm from Indonesia . :)

• Trust. No secrets & no lies. I believe in Karma. So if you do something behind his back, in future, your other half will do it to you too.


• Communication. (Funny enough, I'm the one who has not much to say over the phone...lol) A distance relationship is really difficult to sustain and fragile... Remember to keep the spice over the phone. Distance relationships get boring on a faster level... Always give him something positive to look forward to. If you fill the conversation with laughter, wouldn't he die for more? :)


• Be careful when quarrelling. Never go to bed angry. My Bf and I are like North and South. Different views, opinions, etc. But when we quarrel, we remind ourselves to remain cool and calm in our voices. If we are too mad, we would say, "I'm angry right now. I need 10mins to cool down. I'll call you then." Cos when you are angry, you may say things you don't mean to say. And you wouldn't' want that to happen.

As for my Bf and I, we are still on a journey. But I look forward to the chance to realize whether it will truly work out with my Bf in the long run.

Cos for some, they ironically work out better being apart. :)